Hi all, I moved into a new house last fall but I'm new to yard and tree maintenance. I have a couple questions about some trees on the property and I'd appreciate any advice! I'm in northern New England if that's relevant. I can't figure out how to add captions to each picture on mobile, so I'm just adding questions below.

1. There are about eight trees along the property line with dead bottoms but seemingly putting out new growth on top. One still has a tag saying it's a Serbian Spruce. What's going on here? Will the bottoms grow back ever? Or will they need to go?
   
2. More of the same spruces with dying bottoms.
   
3. This appears to be a fir or some other species, but it's in the same area and also seems to have significant dead branches on the bottom.
   
4. There are three apple trees in the back yard. I noticed it's putting out new small branches lower on the trunk. Do I need to trim that back or is it not an issue? Also, you can see in the pic that there's a circle of stones around the base. I've read several posts on this sub about issues with stone circles, but most of the ones I've seen posted are much biggeheavier, and the tree doesn't seem as mature. But will it still be an issue?
   
5. The other two trees- fewer new branches but still ringed by stones.
   
6. There are two big oaks in the back yard that seem to be bending pretty far over. Is this cause for concern? I don't think it's close enough to hit the house or anything, just a little fenced off dog run left behind by the previous owners.
   
7. One of the two curving trees looks almost dead at the base, but from what I can see there are still green leaves further up.
   

Thanks in advance!

Last night I decided it’s time to end my Etsy, I had it since 2020, made 61 sales, people didn’t even want to buy my original sticker designs just copyright shit. I only got sales after I started drawing popular characters. before you ask yes it was failing and here I am at my 14 an hour job barely holding on to a savings and watching other people thrive on there and in life + relationships. On top of my failing love life this is hitting me like a bag of bricks today.I worked so hard for nothing. I can’t imagine being able to buy a car, or own a house or anything. I feel so stuck and I tried something that ended up biting me in the ass in the end it feels like. This is a rant but I do feel hopeless like a complete failure in life at 22. I also don’t want to wait till my 30s for life to start popping off. I wish I wasn’t so stuck.
Im grateful I even have a job but I have been deliberately trying to become self employed but I wasted so many hours for no reason just to still be here.
I dont have any close friends and the thought of spending my birthday alone again this year makes me want to just end my life.
I feel trapped in life and I feel like there’s no options.
I can’t spend a bunch of money because I’ll loose my savings, and I’d I work two jobs I’ll be miserable like I was last summer.
There’s no way I’m going to find a decent guy, my last situation ship already proved how bad I am at dating apparently. I’ve been working out since last summer and my body hardly changed.
I don’t know why I’m alive at this point my parents won’t even pick up the phone and both my siblings don’t care about me.
I hope I get Covid and fucking die

Title says it all. Neither of us are employed right now and just found out we need to get this thing replaced in a few days so we can register our car. I've looked at the state of California BAR association and we would qualify if not for having to re-register the car in this state, I've tried calling them to see if they would make an exception but they cant. It's going to cost at least $1,000 for a new one. The mechanics in the last state didn't replace it with one that was as good as the original. It cost nearly $2k for the first replacement :/
We just moved 3k miles 2 weeks ago and it was really expensive. We still have some savings but I'd rather not dip into that until my unemployment is up in 2 months. What are my options?

Nick’s earliest memories were of an unhappy home. His father, an alcoholic gambling addict, would regularly disappear for days, returning in the same clothes and not having shaved for days, and having blown all their savings on his binge. Eventually, in his mothers attempts to stand her ground, she tried to make him choose his family or the gambling. It drove him into a rage where he ended up beating her severely and running before the police came, and that was the last time he saw his father.
At 12 years old, his mother died of cancer that quickly spread through her body after first being discovered. Refusing to live with the parents of his father, he ran away and lived on the streets. For such a young boy, he was quite shrewd, shoplifting food from various grocery stores. Within just a couple months, he was devising schemes with teenagers to shoplift from department stores to mom and pop stores, and everything in between, selling the goods to local pawn shops. He learned how to learn the dead-zones of cameras, how to pry the security tags off of items, and how to distract security.
Then his friend gave him the idea of breaking into closed stores or vacation homes to rob them. He was careful, wearing a hoodie, tied to leave no stray hairs as evidence, a mask, gloves, different shoes, and a reversible jacket on the outside that he could flip around to quickly match a different description.
It was successful for the first few attempts, but then he decided to do a job on his own, and attempted to rob the wrong store.
He was casing the place, knocking on the door at the same time every day to ensure nobody was answering the door. Breaking a small window atop the lower floor and climbing a garbage pail to hop through. He went to the cash register, feeling like he hit the jackpot when he discovered more than a thousand in cash, totaling to a few thousand. But he wasn’t aware that the building wasn’t at all abandoned and was attached to a second building, and was a front for Patrick O’Sullivan, a member of the Irish Mob, and they just so happened to be doing a deal at the time.
He tried to run away, heading towards the door, but eventually ran into a boy not much older than he was. He always carried a switchblade with him as a last resort, pulling it on the boy. But he didn’t have it in him to stab the boy. He hesitated. And he got caught.
They forced him to take a seat at the table, and Patrick paced back and forth, Nick’s switchblade in hand. “So you want to steal from *me*?” He scoffs as he flicks open the switchblade. “Usually I would just cut off your fingers so you learn your lesson.” He turns to look at Nick was rage in his eyes. “But you *threatened my son*!?” he shouts into the boy's face, holding the knife just inches from his neck.
“Wait.” Nick hears a voice from behind him protest. Walking around him, narrowing his eyes as he gets a better look at his face, then nodding to himself. He has a different complexion than the others. “I recognize this kid. He’s the son of one of ours. Let him go, I’ll handle this.” he says as he turns to one of his associates, handling a much larger sum of money than NIck had just stolen, tossing it on the table in front of Nick. “This should cover the inconvenience.” He turns back to Nick and gives Nick a stern look. “I’ll make sure no threats to your family ever happen again. And this boy will make it up to you tenfold, *right*?” He gives Nick a small, almost imperceivable nod. Nick quickly agrees.
That was the day Nick met Lorenzo Columbo of the Italian Mafia. Nick never understood why he stepped in and saved him, Lorenzo only claimed that he saw ‘potential’ in him, but it earned Nick’s undying loyalty. He became like a father figure in Nick’s life, something he had never had prior. He gave him a place to stay with one of the maids, whose English wasn’t the best, but as she couldn’t have children of her own she took him as one of her own. Lorenzo taught him how to get by with less risk, *without* getting caught, while also teaching him the value of a hard work ethic.
But it wasn’t all smooth sailing, particularly when it came to family issues. Lorenzo’s daughter, Luna, never understood why her father brought Nick into their life. She was very attached, an only child, and being a few years younger than Nick, Lorenzo never explained what happened to her as she would have been too young to understand, and she tried to keep his direct family from getting involved in any ‘business’ issues. But he was trying to teach Nick how to be a man who could take care of himself, as he has already experienced so many things that no boy his age should have been exposed to.
Lorenzo was gone most of the time, handling business, unintentionally neglecting Luna. Like Nick, she was mostly raised by the maids, spending far more time with them than she spent with her own family. The maids and her dog were her primary companions. She never understood why Nick was allowed to join Lorenzo at work, but she couldn’t. She became increasingly jealous of the time spent with Nick, eventually despising him. She would be the first to remind Nick that he wasn’t really one of their family, and that he never would be. She would lash out, disobeying her fathers rules, but Lorenzo had a soft spot for children and she would be allowed to get away with it. The only rule he was extremely strict on is that she wasn’t allowed to leave the house without supervision, in that way he was overprotective of her, fearing that someone might take her away to get back at him.
Nick never understood why she hated him so much. He never did anything wrong to her, and she constantly targeted him. He didn’t ask for any of this, he just did as told, and tried to be obedient - something that Luna certainly was not. Due to how she treated him, he developed a distaste for her. Considering he spent a lot of efforts trying to stay in line and follow the rules, he never understood why she *never* followed the rules, and why he was judged so harshly for breaking the rules, while she could get away with anything. It didn’t seem fair. From that point, though he wasn’t one of their family members, it was almost like they had a never-ending sibling rivalry.
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6 years later…
Lorenzo asked Nick to speak to him privately. He confided that they had a major problem. One of the O’Sullivan brothers was dead. Lorenzo expressed that it breaks his heart to have to ask for this, but they need somebody to take the fall, and asked Nick if he could do it, promising that he would make it up to him and be there for him once he’s out.
To Lorenzo’s surprise, Nick gladly accepted. Nick felt that he owed his *life* to Lorenzo and would do *anything* for him, because he wouldn’t even be alive if it wasn’t for Lorenzo.
It wasn’t until the day of the trial that he was informed that *Luna* was the person he was taking a fall for. As much as that explained why Lorenzo needed somebody to take the fall - he couldn’t let his daughter go down, and it would be extremely poor optics if his daughter murdered one of them - he wondered to himself why it had to be her of all people. ‘It’s just like her to *literally* get away with murder!’, he thought to himself. But he was loyal, and still decided to do what he agreed to without dispute.
The part that really upset him was when she took the stand as a witness. She burst out crying, accusing Nick of being ‘crazed’, how all they were doing was hanging out peacefully and over a joke he snapped and couldn’t control himself, giving explicit detail about how brutal he was, how he grabbed the murder weapon - a relatively small but heavy ornamental statue - and just wouldn’t stop hitting him. She almost got it escalated from homicide to murder, and would have if Lorenzo didn’t pay for the best lawyer in the state. Nick tried his best to keep his cool, and had to accept that Luna finally got what she wanted… For Nick to be gone.
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10 years later…
Nick is finally released, and Lorenzo has provided him with a home. But they had to be discreet, as it would seem quite obvious if he fell right back in line after serving time for killing one of the Irish without permission.
One day, Lorenzo calls and says it’s an emergency, he needs Nick to meet him at the house urgently.
Nick arrives at the house, standing in the next room awaiting a moment to speak with Lorenzo.
“What do you mean you’re leaving!?” he hears the unmistakable bitterness of Luna’s voice speaking to her father. “You’re leaving me!?” Her voice is becoming increasingly distraught. “I guess I should be used to you leaving by now!” it sounds as if she’s on the verge of tears.
“Sweetie, this is urgent.” Lorenzo says calmly. “Tell me something new, dad!” she says with a scoff. After a brief pause. “... How bad is it?” she asks her father. He remains quiet. “Why aren’t you saying anything!?” Lorenzo breaths in deeply and sighs. “It’s nothing for you to worry ab-” Luna interrupts him. “I’m not a child!” she spats back at him. “Luna, watch your tone!” he says commandingly, leaving no room for dispute.
“I’m putting someone else in charge. You’re going to listen to everything he tells you to do in my absence. Do not give him a hard time, do you hear me? There will be no negotiation. Just because I’m not here, does not mean you can do whatever it is you want to, is that clear?” he demands.
“Yeah, whatever. Have a safe trip dad.” She stomps out of the room, Nick only seeing the back of her head as she speeds by, hiding her face, presumably to hide tears. She didn’t even notice him.
Nick enters the room, Lorenzo seeming relieved at his presence. Nick presumes that Lorenzo wasn’t sure if he would show up. He stands tall, hands clasped behind his back as Lorenzo takes a seat.
“Nick, I have to leave, and I’m leaving you in charge. I don’t have time to explain.”
Without hesitation, Nick responds. “How long can I expect you to be gone?”
“That is left to be determined…” Lorenzo says, sounding almost sad.
Nick gives a small nod. “I assume there will be an announcement of my authority to minimize insubordination? And I’ll need a briefing on your dealings, as well as a place to stay while you are gone.”
Lorenzo lets out a small chuckle. “Nicolaus, you already know all of my dealings. I have never kept any secrets from you. And you could choose any of the guest rooms here to stay in.” Ever since he was a child, Lorenzo was the only person to call Nick by his full name. To others, he was just Nick, or to the maid staff, he was Nicky as a term of endearment.
“You can trust that your business will be safe under my care, sir.” Nick says confidently.
“And my daughter?” Lorenzo tilts his head down, eyes looking up at Nick’s with a piercing gaze.
Up until this point, Nick has done a good job of keeping stone-faced. But he’s sure that at hearing about her, that Lorenzo could see a slight wince on his face.
“Yes sir, of course.”
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A little while later, Nick had taken some time to process the situation. He realized he needs to read between the lines of this situation and figure out why *he* was chosen for the job. It makes little sense. Optics are extremely bad, leaving a person with his history not only being accepted back, but now in charge?
Nick dared not question Lorenzo any further, not only because of his integrity and respect for authority, but because he knew if Lorenzo did not give any further information, it’s because he does not feel comfortable speaking around the others.
Then there’s the way he mentioned his daughter. Nick could sense that this means Luna is in danger. There must be some legitimate threat out there, one that his regular people couldn’t handle, or could not be trusted for. And that’s likely related to the reason he’s leaving too. The bad blood between us implies how serious the threat must be.
Nick has to come to terms with the fact that he’d had to dedicate nearly half of his life to her protection. Whether he likes it or not, fate keeps leading him right back to her. Not that she ever has shown any appreciation for it. But he wouldn’t have any life to live if it wasn’t for Lorenzo, so it’s decided. If he must stake his life for her protection again, then so be it.
He just hopes she will cooperate this time… Last he heard, Luna was always notorious for her rebelliousness and knack of getting in trouble. Seemingly even killing people on a whim, despite never being trained in combat.
He suspects keeping Luna in line might be an even more difficult job than the last one he had to do for her…
Once settled in a guest room and Lorenzo preparing to leave, he acts distant from most of the others, with a cold, calm demeanor, always seeming in control, much like Lorenzo. Aside from the maid staff, whom he is quite pleasant with. After all, some of them were the ones who raised him.
He decides it’s time to focus on his duties, approaching Luna’s bedroom door, actually feeling a bit nervous. Not about what she might do, as much as trying to keep himself in check, as he’s well aware of how much unresolved anger there is which has been ignored rather than dealt with. But knowing Luna’s rebellious nature, he knows he needs to establish authority while her father is gone.
He chuckles to himself at the irony of how facing Luna feels like a fate worse than prison.
He steels himself, face becoming stone, jaw slightly clenched, as he knocks on the door.
No longer is he the scrawny boy that she last saw, now a hardened man, looking far different from before. More imposing. Standing 6’1 with a scruffy face and long wavy hair, making his complexion seem darker than it is. In his mind, he expects to see a young, rebellious teenager answering the door, music playing in the background as she rolls her eyes at him in disdain for being interrupted.
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While Luna used to be adventurous and outgoing, she was never the same after that day she encountered Liam O’Sullivan.
Nobody but her father knew the truth. The reality that on that fateful day, Liam had tried to rape her. Well, more than tried, he *did* rape her. But she didn’t go easily. Maybe she would have been able to fight him off if her father taught her to defend herself how she always wanted to, but she fought back with all her might. And once he fell off balance, she grabbed the closest thing she could find, the statue, and lost control. Unable to stop swinging until he stopped moving. She never thought she would be capable of something so horrible.
That’s the real reason for her outburst at the trial. She was being forced to relive the most traumatic moment of her life. And it emphatically proved how horrible of a person she was. Sending another person to prison for what *she* did. No matter how much she hated Nick when they were young, that was a fate he didn’t deserve. She’s lived to regret the fact that she not only took one man's life, but ruined another man's life. It’s what she’s best at.
She became much more reserved, even more attached to her father and her dog, Shadow. No longer outgoing, she became very reserved around others, fearful. Especially men.
Her ‘rebelliousness’ and anger she shows others is just a front, not allowing them to see the darkness she harbors inside. Hiding her loneliness by being cold towards others, acting tough when she is extremely sensitive. She only has a few friends who could tolerate her and how much she pushes them away, a habit she formed because she doesn’t feel she can trust anyone. She never smiles, except when with her father or her dog.
Her looks and cold personality have always gotten her the most attention from strangers, yet she yearns for simple attention from one person in her life and that’s her father’s.
Deep down she has a sweet, caring heart, but it’s hidden and covered by layers of fear and trauma. Her guard is always up, especially in a house full of men that she hates. She hides her wounds from everyone. She spends her time mostly exercising, reading, or occasionally sneaking out of the house with Grayson, one of her fathers men that she had taken a liking to, as he helps her out whenever she does decide to sneak away. Eventually it led to a secret relationship between them.
Despite her attachment to Grayson, and their meaningless sex, she had never been able to fully let her guard down. Especially because Grayson has a bit of an abusive nature, to say it mildly. He *has* abused her before, hitting her, but it hadn’t left any major marks. Out of fear of losing the one man in her life that paid attention to her, she has allowed it. Hiding it from her father, because she knows what would happen if he found out. He is slowly destroying the little bit of her self worth that is left.
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The silence in Luna’s room is deafening, so she fills it with a mild audible sound of Spotify in the background. That still wasn’t enough to get her mind off of the conversation with her father. While it was the same conversation she’s had with him time and time again throughout her life, this time felt… Different. Very different.
She leans her head back on the headboard and checks to see if she has any text back from Grayson, whom she left a message asking “What the hell is going on?”, and as expected, there was none. She’s sure he knows her father is leaving, but isn’t sure if he knows why, or who will be put in charge. Just the idea makes her scoff, the last thing she needs is a babysitter.
Her dog joins her on the bed, nuzzling his head on to her lap, tail wagging, demanding pats, and coaxing a smile out of her. Shadow is the only thing keeping her from going insane in this house, knowing exactly when she needs comfort and never hesitating to provide it. He remains on the bed with her, resting his head on her thigh, never leaving her side. For a moment, she forgets what’s going on.
She hears a knock on the door, staring at the hard wood for a moment. She hopes it’s Grayson, checking on her to make sure she’s okay, and maybe if she’s lucky, even comfort her. She gets up and heads to the door with that thought on her mind. She wasn’t prepared for what she discovered.
Her heart drops. Familiar dark eyes that are engraved in her mind staring down at her with nothing but coldness in them. She blinks once, twice, wondering if her eyes are deceiving her. The lean boy she knew was standing there, but he was no longer small and lean, his features far more chiseled and distinguished. The suit he wore was striking, unable to hide the muscular frame beneath. She found herself speechless for a moment. It felt unreal for her to see him after he was unrightfully taken away.
He recognized her eyes at first glance, his eyes quickly breaking, darting to the abrupt movement at the side of the room, realizing it’s a dog, the dog's eyes darting between them, measuring our reactions. Even it seems frozen, confused by their reaction.
He notices how much she’s grown. Her face thinner, freckles and imperfections faded. While obviously older and taller, she seems… Smaller? Despite her never being as large as Nick, she had an aura about her that was almost intimidating. But now the air around her is… Different.
But it’s her hair that caught his eye most. Much longer than it used to be. Although he supposes it’s the same for him, it’s an integral part of her presence now. If he were to take a moment to consider it, he’d think she’s grown to look far more feminine and be quite beautiful. But he immediately speeds past those thoughts before they complete, focusing on his job he has to do.
Neither of them said a word, but their eyes spoke a million.
“Nick?” Her voice came out in barely more than a whisper, trying to comprehend if this is real. If so, she had no idea he was even out of prison, as nobody had informed her. A thousand questions ran through her mind. ‘How long has he been out? Why are you at my door? Are you even real? *How much do you hate me*?’ But she can’t bring herself to utter another word.
Having been anticipating conflict, the way she spoke his name almost threw him off, he expected that her father would have informed her that I was in charge, which is why he expected her to rebel, but that seems not to be the case. She seems to be genuinely surprised.
He narrows his eyes, a little, trying to read hers. He’s always prided himself on his ability to read people. But hers are hard to read, as she’s seemingly experiencing a rollercoaster of emotions, and he doesn’t understand why she would feel anything more than disdain based on his expectations. And honestly, it’s unsettling for someone like him to be around such raw emotion without being prepared for it.
As much as he wants to comment on their past, to call out what she did, or at least ask why… He decides against it. ‘Neither of us want to be in this situation. It’s just a job’.
He slowly takes in a deep breath, calculating his words. Standing tall and tilting his head back authoritatively as he begins to speak.
“Your father has put me in charge in his absence. Not just to oversee business matters, but I am personally responsible for your safety.” He leans in, maintaining eye contact, trying to convey the seriousness. “I will not be allowing any harm to come to you while you are my responsibility. If I give any orders, I will need you to obey immediately without question. If you have any questions, ask them later. I will need to know where you are and to give approval of where you are going at all times. I will need your phone number, you will have tracking turned on your phone at all times so I could monitor, and you will always answer when I call no matter what the circumstances. I don’t care where you are going, I only care about your safety. I will not tolerate any disobedience. I will not tolerate being ignored.” He pauses for a moment, to see how she is taking his words.
“I need you to tell me that you understand.” He maintains a serious look on his stone face as he awaits an answer.
Her brow furrows as he utters sentence after sentence, focused on how much his voice has changed and is no longer as soft as it used to be. She feels like she’s staring at a stranger, but then she begins to realize what he’s saying.
She shakes her head, feeling like he hadn’t even given her a chance to speak as he lays a newspaper's worth of rules in front of her. All she can do is let out a perplexed “Huh?” He’s the one her father left in charge of her? The one who never tolerated her? The one who spent half his life in prison because of her? There is no way… She scoffs, trying her best not to lose it on him, but it’s hard.
“I’m sorry, what? Do you really think I’m going to agree to this!?” she asks, with pure anger in her tone. She knows for a fact he doesn’t want to do this either, so why didn’t he say no to her father? How could he agree to look after the person that ruined his life? It only drives her crazier that the look on his face isn’t changing or reacting to her. She used to always know how to push his buttons and get a reaction. She looks over at Shadow, almost for assistance, but he is looking at Nick with a calm curiosity, even wagging his tail slightly. *It figures*, she thinks, *He usually hates men, but of course when she wants him to…*
“There will be no tracking my phone, no obeying you, no approval from you. I’m not doing this.” She pushes past him, out the door, her blood boiling, heart racing, palms sweaty and hands shaking. ‘How does he think he’d ever get away with this? When the hell did he get back anyway!?’
To her surprise, Lorenzo is with his men, including Grayson, putting on his coat in the living room. “Luna. I take it you spoke with Nicolaus?” He speaks confidently. *This is real…*
“Will you be okay?” Lorenzo asks, placing his hands on her shoulders. All she can think is *how could I possibly be okay?* as she fights back tears in her eyes.
“I’ll see you soon.” he says, stroking her cheek. She fears this might be the last time she ever sees him… And she doesn’t want to part like this. She wraps her arms around him, hugging him tight, enjoying his presence for as long as she has it. He soon breaks the embrace, seeming reluctant as he nods his head, departing through the door. She rushes back to her room before she allows her tears to escape.
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I appreciate it if you’ve made it this far! I’m looking for a long-term partner to play out this scenario where I’ll be playing Nick.
Despite our rivalry, we end up being stuck together. In the middle of a life of crime and a criminal conspiracy, thrown into a situation where we must rely on each other. With myself as the protector, and you, who is thrown in to a world you've always been hidden from.
The mystery of what’s going on will only deepen. What’s *really* going on? Why is there danger? We’ll have to question trusting anyone.
This setting should leave it pretty open in the directions we could go, and while I have a few ideas of ways we can take it, I welcome your ideas as well!
As we get to know each other, while there’s so much that led to our rivalry, there’s much more that was secret and that we’re unaware of about each other. While we may handle things differently, with Nick relying on staying calm, and Luna relying on overreacting, we both have lived a life where we felt abandoned, and have our own ways of hiding what we think or feel, both of us having trouble getting closer.
He’s forced into a role of her protector, and she’s never been able to feel safe around people. And he never knew all that she went through, falling for the illusion she gives that she doesn’t care about anything, never knowing how badly she needs that protection. By giving her somebody she could actually feel safe around, and him coming to terms with the fact that he may voluntarily want to protect her if given a choice, there's many threads that could eventually evolve into them developing feelings for each other, as much as they may want to resist that happening.
Along the path, there may be a lot of drama and disputes, pushing each other away, but due to the situation, we’ll be forced back together.
Despite being a very lengthy introduction, I’m open to any length of responses, there’s no requirements in length! Whatever feels right! It’s all in good fun!
Feel free to let me know any adaptations or ideas you may want to include, or requests!
If interested, I hope to hear back from you!

Hi,
I woke up today royally anxious. I had no idea why. I then logged onto my emails to start work and had an influx of emails requiring my action immediately. For context, I have ADHD and dyslexia, and these urgent emails made me feel quite flustered and frustrated. At work we use Teams to communicate outside of emails, so I messaged my colleague and got some things off my chest. Really silly things like "this is stressing me out and it's not even 10am", "the way they said that made me feel like it was my fault", "they won't stop chasing"... We were just venting about various emails and people.
I had asked for further info on something from a specific person and the reply started with "it should all be on the system" and I just saw red. My job is quite fiddly enough so having as many bits of information helps me and I assumed they were telling me go away and look for myself.
I immediately turned to my colleague and said it was annoying me and it's not the first time. But I sent it to the person I was talking about.
I deleted it, but they saw. I was mortified.
I ended up apologising that they had to hear about my frustrations in such a way and in future will bring them to a professional forum, it was purely a heat of the moment thing. I did offer to jump on a call and talk about it. They didn't want a call and just asked me not to go behind their backs next time.
The problem is, I work so closely with them. They hold grudges, and I am a chronic people pleaser. I am now so terrified that I have sold my soul over to them in order to make up for this mistake of mine. I also feel really bad, I realised that they had actually given me all the information I needed. And I also think it wasn't nice for them to learn that I was talking about them, so I feel incredibly guilty. I also feel a bit embarrassed.
The other side to the story is that this frustration has been building. This person can honestly make my work life a little hard sometimes but I've never had the guts to say it because they can hold grudges, as I've said. They upset me quite a bit last week and it's been bottled up.
I don't want conflict and I feel I may have exhausted my options. I apologised, I owned up to it, I offered to talk and I've tried to act normal.
Is there anything else I should be doing?

This is really important and I need your help urgently. This might take some time, and I'm sorry for that.
Hi, my name is Manuela and I'm 24 years old. I'm terminally ill since I was born and I am dying. Long story short: I've been in a wheelchair since... always and forever. I could never walk. My health gets worse over time and there's no cure, not even a chance of me getting any better health wise. I need constant help with almost everything 24/7 due to an illness that causes my muscles to waste away since birth. I've been having chronic chest pain for 6 years and I've been on Morphine/Fentanyl for 5 now (I also have other kinds of pains due not being able to move a lot, due to being skinny and barely having any muscles ((bones picking on/through my skin and leaving pressure marks on certain areas in any position that I'm in for a little bit of time without moving)) which causes unbearable pain). I've been in palliative care on and off (right now I'm not, there's nothing the doctors can do so they want me to stay home if possible to be able to spend time with my loved ones as long as I still can).
Because of my illness (Spinal Muscular Atrophy Type 2, SMA 2 for short) I also have severe breathing issues (I have to be on life support ever since I was 3 years old - which is a medical device that helps you to breathe - but I don't use it because it causes severe chest pain and the mask leaves severe pressure marks on my face (nose and T-bone area) which they turn into open wounds that hurt so much and it's a huge infection risk) that's why I'm trying to breathe on my own for as long as I still can, even if I'm struggling and I need to have an oxygen mask (most of the time in summer when it's hot or when I'm sick). I also have severe swallowing issues (especially with certain types of food like meat, rice etc) all due to lack of strength and I keep on losing more strength without being able to gain any.
All in all: My life has been tough. I have a lot of trauma from all the health issues I've had, all the treatments from doctors in hospitals, staying in hospitals, mostly in intensive care units on and off from birth until I was 12. It was like this: 2 weeks in hospital/ICU and then 2-3 days home and repeat for the first first 12 years of my life. I have been having nightmares almost every time I sleep for as long as I can remember for my entire life. I cry in my sleep every now and then, and I say stuff like "no, please don't, no, please". I don't and can't remember doing that when I wake up. But my family wakes me up sometimes when they hear me crying in my sleep and they tell me about it.
This is just the tip of the iceberg really. But I want to keep it short yet tell and explain some of the things I've gone through so maybe you'd understand. I'm really sorry for writing so much but if you are still here and reading this, thank you. It means so much to me. Thank you from the bottom of my heart.
I have depression, anxiety and suicidal thoughts since I was 12. That's when I started self harming, too. I also tried to end myself many times, but somehow... I couldn't. I was heavily bullied in school for 3 years (when I was 12 until I was 15) for looking the way I do. I like feeling and dressing pretty, and most girls felt intimidated so they told everyone rumors about me (saying that I was a hoe, sleeping around with every guy etc) so everyone started laughing at me and hating me. I got blackmailed daily and it was just horrible. I wish these girls know I'm still a virgin today. I bet they'd feel stupid for judging me based off my looks (though I always dressed appropriately, never showed my legs and stomach, but my clothes and outfits were still more glamorous than average, and I had my nails done and started wearing lipstick and mascara at 11) all because my mom also treated me like a doll so I always HAD to look perfect all the time, I always had to be smiling and never show any signs of weakness. She literally hit and slapped me on my face every time I cried. So I tried to hide my negative emotions and feeling pretty young. But... I am an empath, INFJ. If I am sad, my tears stream down my face no matter how much I try not to cry. I can't help it. I still have a smile on my face but I can't control my tears. Now, I always have a smile on my face, but it's not genuine most of the time. I don't want anyone to see what I'm truly feeling because I don't want to make anyone worry about me.
Being an INFJ Empath maybe explains why I'm suffering so much emotionally and mentally. I seem to only attract narcissists, psychopaths, and sociopaths, that's why I'm alone and I don't have any friends because I'm afraid of being hurt and used, then thrown away again. I love animals and helping people. I believe everything happens for a reason and I believe everyone is here for a reason - everything and everyone has a purpose. But I can't seem to find mine. I'm useless, quite literally. I need help with almost everything and I don't know what I can offer other than a good heart, listening ears, empathy, love and care because that doesn't seem to be good enough nowadays. I have so much love to give and yet I don't have any for myself.
The reason why I'm still holding on is because... I have been dreaming, hoping and wishing (ever since I was very little) to be able to give something to the world to help others and help ease the pain, loneliness and suffering. To love and be loved, to be happy and make others happy. Because I truly know life is worth fighting for despite any bad thing. But I've been suffering so much - physically and mentally - and I don't have a reason to keep fighting anymore. I only have my dad, my step mom. My dad works 400 km away from home 4-5 days of the week, my step mom who is also my caretaker, she owns a small hotel and is taking care of it all on her own while still taking care of me. They work so much to be able to take care of and support me, but they are struggling so much and I feel so bad for not being able to help, for being nothing but a bother. It's heartbreaking. I know they are better off without me. Well, they and my dog would miss me a little, but they'd get over it one day.
I just can't bear the pain I feel in my mind, heart and body anymore. It has gotten unbearable. And yet, I'm afraid of dying. Because I like to believe in God and supposedly it's a sin to commit suicide. So I'm scared of being punished with hell or even reincarnation. I just want this to end. I always imagine of there being something like what we call "heaven". A place where we go to after this life on earth, where we can be with our loved ones - a place where there's no illness, sadness and pain.
Please tell me about your opinion/knowledge on this. What happens after death? Where do we go? What is our purpose? Especially... What’s the purpose on being here? Why is there so much suffering? Please take away my anxiety about dying.
Sending much love and light, Manuela

Just to give some background, I astral project a LOT! It comes very natural to me to the point that I don't particularly try or sometimes even want to do it. That being said, there's one experience that I've been avoiding for some reason.
About 2 or 3 years ago, I recall being in an astral projection experience. I was in a shed-like structure, grey dried out wood with what seemed to be a kitchen with tools and junk just laying about. It was dark outside, no clouds. The environment was a dry sort of remains of a pine forest. I remember hiding behind cabinets with somebody I didn't recognize. To my knowledge, I was hiding out of sight of a large log cabin only a few yards from this shed. The cabin was dark on the inside, like an abyss. There were large holes like explosions went off in the walls, they kinda reminded me of the cartoon Monster House in the way it was structured.
In my mind, I was contemplating doing something that I knew was very risky. I felt like I was in mortal danger just being there. I looked at the house, noticing very faint green and blue flames inside. I looked at the person I was with whom I cannot describe very well. He looks like a young man, maybe late 20s with black hair. I was about to ask him something when I heard a woman cry out in anguish from the house. It was petrifying, blood curdling. And when it pierced my ears, I got flashes of this woman's life. It was like I was feeling her soul, the pain of every bad thing that had happened to her in life.
I remember feeling hollow. The woman felt like somebody I knew but I still can't quite pin point it. I have a hunch of who she is but nothing beyond that. There was just something familiar about her. I remember immediately charging at the house, jumping through one of the holes to get inside. I couldn't let whatever was going on to continue, i just felt like i had to save her..
Inside this cabin, it was more like a cave with giant sharp boulders covering the layout. There was a sort of slime covering the cave walls and little glimmers of faint flames moving around the crevasses. The strangest thing about this was the flames felt like they were intelligent, somehow alive the way it moved. I reached out to touch it but when I did it lashed out like a snake, burning me. But the pain wasn't just physical, it was like the flames reacted to painful memories I had. I remember seeing the flash in red but still not sure what the specific memory was, just that it hurt very badly.
I moved deeper into the cave when I found a deep dark pit that the flames seemed to converge into. I remember not wanting to go anywhere near it, it gave a horrible sense of dread. Like the closer I got to it, the less "hope" I felt. Then I heard it again, the woman screaming from within the abyss. I sort of connected with it and saw darkness but within it were raw and very powerful flames, like a huge gasoline fire. There were faces completely charred, yelling out in pure anguish. I vaguely remember seeing a man behind me in my mind's eye, like hoping that I would jump in. For some reason I didn't even look behind me, the screams were just so mortifying, I didn't want to move. I remember feeling my heart pounding very rapidly. I knew I had to go in so i just did it. I jumped into the abyss.
From here, I remember falling into the darkness past very tall flames coming from a ground I couldn't see. The image reminds me of the flames from the second Terminator movie when it begins. Falling, I tried to breathe but there was no air, just smoldering ash filling my lungs.
There's a really large gap in my memory here but I'm very sure I was in Hell. Around the late mid-section of me being in there, I remember being in a horrible state of mind, like i was just full of absolute hatred. Then a dark figure approaches me and holds up a mirror to me. The mirror was like a very weathered Victorian era with faded gold edges. When it held up this mirror, I saw myself but in a thick charred exterior. In some ways it reminded me of medieval knight armor the way it was shaped but no shine, it just looked like it was made of charcoal. And beyond that was an extremely dark mist surrounding me. I felt like I was lost for a long time but when I saw myself, I sort of was reminded that I still exist. I can't explain how I saw myself as there was no actual hole or crack, I just psychicly saw myself.
Then I remember that I was in there for a reason but then blacked out again. Then I was suddenly back in the cave, but it felt more peaceful than before, like it was no longer a threat. I looked at the flames as they were before but it sort of moved as if it respected me somehow. It didn't hurt me, it was almost like I could control it in a way when I'd look at it. I remember going out the door where the sun was rising but I felt shameful. Like I did something that was very bad. I don't specifically remember doing something about it but I felt like I blocked the memory.
I've had a long time to contemplate this experience and it still boggles my mind to this day. There's way too much detail for it to be nothing. And I didn't even remember most of this the same day. Like things would randomly happen where I'd be confronted with something "scary" and it was like PTSD was kicking in.
I've never had anything like this happen before but I felt like I should share my experience. Think of it how you want but to me, this was real and probably the worst astral projection ever became for me.

Defending the Draft: 2023 Washington Commanders 8-8-1
Preface:
Hope.
This 2023 season will be the most interesting for the Commanders franchise in a long long time. We enter this season with more uncertainty than I have ever been a part of, however, the one thing the fan base is certain of... is the future is brighter. Dan Snyder purchased the franchise in 1999 and subsequently done nothing but run a blue blood franchise into the ground. This team has lacked direction for a long time and a large part of that was due to Dan Snyder's meddling in the day-to-day football operations of the team. Starting his ownership with signing washed up HOF veterans, to then overspending in free agency (Albert Haynesworth is arguably the worst free agent signing of all time), drug scandal with thetraining staff, the mishandling of the RG3 and Kirk Cousins situation, Not resigning Trent Williams, and lastly we've now reached tumultuous time where his off the field issues have hung a dark cloud over a once proud franchise. Although, lol, his most egregious mistake may be hiring Jim Zorn as head coach. It's egregious that his only punishment is a 6 billion dollar payout for his franchise. I hope the banks bury him and he faces the deserved legal actions. As of now there had been an agreement to sell the franchise to 76'rs and NJ Devils owner, Josh Harris.... and is 20ish members of his parliament. We await to hear news of the reviews from the NFL financial committee to close out the process. Last news I came across was he has cut down the number of minority owners to 20. It will be a pleasure when this agreement is finalized. He could be a terrible owner, but it would still be an upgrade from Synder. Harris, seemingly has been a hands off owner and properly allows the people he's hired to operate the team. This last sports season he's had both of his teams deep in the playoff hunt. This season will be interesting. A lot of questions all around: Sam Howell? Chase Young? Ron Rivera? Eric Bienemy? Josh Harris? I'm not sure of those answers, but I'm very excited to find them out.
Coaching:
HC- Ron Rivera OC- Eric Bieniemy DC- Jack Del Rio
Key Additions: Eric Bieniemy
Ole' Riverboat Ron Rivera is back and going into his 4th season with the Washington Commanders, hopefully his last. I believe Ron Rivera is a leader of men, but I highly question his actual coaching skills and team building. I've currently seen enough of this coaching regime and front office to safely say let's move on. There's been several things that I believed were firable offenses.... the Carson Wentz trade. Some rumors have said that this was a Snyder push. Not entirely positive, but Ron bragged that it was his call. Our team at that point was not a qb away from being really good, let alone a Carson Wentz level of qb. The next fireable offense was starting Wentz over Hienke when the playoffs were on the line. Wentz ended up being benched for Hienke, but it was too little too late. The next fireable offense was not realizing we were eliminated from the playoffs. Going into the last week of the season Ron planned on starting Hieneke. Pretty odd to not know you're out of the playoffs, let alone to test Sam Howell out for next season. Additionally, there's been some pretty questionable roster creation decisions. I absolutely hate the versatile secondary and offensive line philosophy. We currently have a patch work offensive line that has the means to fluctuate between average to below average. Not a single player on the line is top 5 at their respected position. Two years ago we had a top 10 o-line, but that had Brandon Sherff playing like a top 5 guard and Charles Leno having his best season. Our o-line took a significant step back this past season and now looks to be our biggest weakness. Ron has shown to trust his own board and has reached (according to the consensus big board) with every single pick so far. People mistake 2019 as one of his drafts ( Sweat, McLaurin, Holcomb), but he was hired at the end of the season. Take this with a grain of salt as it takes at least 3 years to properly review a draft. Rons 1st round picks have been the following: 2020 pick 2 Chase Young- the correct pick at the time, but hard to botch the 2nd overall pick, 2021 pick 19 Jamin Davis- hated the pick at the time, too early for a linebacker... let a lone a project. On tape he looked lost a lot and made up for it with his elite athleticism. He's shown progress, but nothing showing he's worthy of the pick. 2022 pick 16 Jahan Dotson- looks to be an absolute baller, had him ranked above Olave in the pre-draft process. Was a slight reach above the consensus board, but flashed high end ability. Davis has been the only mistake in the 1st round thus far. When I say mistake I don't necessarily mean player, but the roster building philosophy. Whether reaching on Phidarian Mathis in the 2nd round of 2022. Lol, he was older than Payne coming out of the draft, one year of good production, and was taken a round too early. In the next round Brian Robinson was taken and was really just a body. Haven't really seen anything elite with him so far and was a meh pick. John Bates in the 4th round was egregious. Now I have to give credit where it's due. Kam Curl was an absolute steal and can solidify himself as top 5 safety this season if he continues to play this well. Our other starting safety in Darrick Forest also had a lot of bright spots playing this past season.
Arguably, our best offseason move was signing Eric Bieniemy. I'm absolutely excited. Forget everything about him not calling the plays. Reports from OTA's shows his hands on approach and full control of the offense. One of my favorites things I've heard is he is using OTA's to see what the players can do and crafting the offense to their abilities. Time and time again (Scott Turner) you see coaches say this is the offense and not change anything to match the players strengths. We don't know for sure how the offense will look, but if it's anything close to the motion west coast offense the Chiefs have... boy lessssss gooooooo. Jack Del Rio has been up-and-down in his time in Washington. He's had two very slow starts with the defense to start year, however, they've finished strong and kept his job safe. This is really the no excuse year and everyone needs to show up amd show out.
Free Agency:
Key Departures:
Taylor Hieneke- signed with the Falcons
Cole Holcolm- signed with the Steelers
Bobby McCain- signed with the Giants
Carson Wentz- TBD
J.D. McKissic- TBD
Trai Turner TBD
Andrew Norwell- will be released when he passes a physical
Summary:
In my personal oppinion, the only player that hurt losing in free agency was Cole Holcolm. Linebacker is our one weak spot on defense, however, not resigning Holcolm shows Ron's belief in Jaymin Davis's progression. Cole was limited to 7 games last season and has yet to truly break out. Always played very solid and losing him downgraded the position. We've moved on from both starting guards from last year in Norwell and Turner (previously on the Panthers). Both players were liabilities last season and the guard position was easily upgradeable. Bonny McCain was a solid do it all for is player. Lined up at corner, safety, and nickel throughout the season. Hieneke was a big fan favorite, but was never the answer. We thank you for your service though. Carson Wentz, fuck you. Loved J.D. and his time here, suffered a major injury. Not sure if he gets picked up hy another team.
Key Additions:
Andrew Wiley- 3 years for 24 million, 12 guaranteed. Previously on the Chiefs
Nick Gates- 3 years for 16.5 million, 8 million guaranteed. Previously on the Giants
Jacoby Brissett- 1 year for 8 million, 7.5 million guaranteed. Previously on the Browns
Cody Barton- 1 year for 3.5 million, 3.5 million guaranteed. Previously on the Seahawks
Summary:
Simple. In free agency the Commanders did not overspend and tackled positions of need. None of the players signed are top 5 at their position, however, they could all possibly end up being upgrades to what we have. The most interesting is Andrew Wiley. He allowed 9 sacks (tied for 3rd most)... but man he put on the performance of his life in the superbowl. Another stat that favors him is pass block win-rate, which measure if a lineman can sustain a block for 2.5 seconds. Wylie ranked 9th in that stat last season. I translate that stat to mean can a lineman sustain a block against thr initial rush and counter move off the snap. After that 2.5 seconds the ball is thrown or the play breaks down. Another key factor to this signing is it kicks Samuel Cosmi inside to guard. Cosmi has shown flashes being a high end lineman and I expect him to be even better kicking to guard from right tackle. Guard was our weakest position on the line and Wylie signing helped to upgrade the RG position. Nick Gates is expected to he our starting center. He's coming off of a brutal leg injury that made him consider retirement. Has played guard and center and has some positional flexibility. Jacoby Brissett is the best backup qb in thr league. A solid signing if Howell doesn't pan out. Just a solid game manager that doesn't commit many turnovers. Cody Barton is another unproven guy. Last year was his first year with significant reps. Bobby Wagner leaving in FA and Jordyn Brooks injury made em the guy. He showed flashes of coverage abilities and had a lot of tackles. The tackles weren't necessarily a product of his abilities and more so of cleaning up on a bad run defense team. I've read some notes that he has trouble getting off of blocks. Honestly, haven't watched much on the guy, but reports were he played solid down the stretch.
The Draft:
Round 1 Pick 16: Emmanuel Forbes- CB
Round 2 Pick 47: Jatavius Martin- NCB/S
Round 3 Pick 97: Ricky Stromberg- C/G
Round 4 Pick 118: Braeden Daniels- T/G
Round 5 Pick 137: KJ Henry-DE
Round 6 Pick 193: Chris Rodriguez-RB
Round 7 Pick 223: Andre Jones- DE/LB
Link to all RAS scores for our draft class
https://commanderswire.usatoday.com/lists/2023-nfl-draft-ras-scores-for-the-washington-commanders-7-player-class-emmanuel-forbes/
Round 1:16 Emmanuel Forbes 6'1" 174 lbs. Mississippi St
Stats: 58 targets, 31 catches allowed for 284 yards (23 yards a game), 3 tds allowed/ 6 ints, 9 forced incompletions, 2 dropped ints, 46 tackles.
PFF Grade: 87.2
If being a 160 pounds is your only knock then I think you're doing something alright. The word on the street is he is already up to 174 pounds. You wouldnt realize hes only 174 pounds by the way he plays the run. Hes not scared to hit and flies ro the ball. Although, he does struggle to get off of blocks. Emmanuel Forbes, per PFF, had the highest rating in man coverage last season, albeit the snap count was very miniscule. Emmanuel Forbes is a lanky corner than played a lot of zone coverage and is a very good scheme fit for what we do. I like the pick and I'm not upset about taking him over Gonzalez, who also had his own question marks. Forbes set a NCAA record with 6 pick sixes. A lot of those were the right place at the right time, but when you have that high of a number than you're doing something right.
PFF:
Forbes is one of the best ballhawks in this class. Over the course of his three-year career, he came down with 13 interceptions. That’s four more than the next closest Power Five cornerback since 2020. Forbes was unbelievably dominant in man coverage in 2022, giving up only three catches while also snagging three interceptions. He also only allowed a 20% completion rate in man, the lowest among FBS
PROS
Remarkably lanky frame. Limbs for days — ideal for a corner.Has bounce like a hooper. He can challenge any catch point necessary. Elite ability to locate the football. All six of his interceptions came in man coverage.
CONS
Still a stick. Not much mass on his frame. Has eyes that get him in trouble. Some freelance tendencies on tape.Can get bowled over in the run game. Mediocre tackler over the course of his career.
Round 2: 47 Jartavius "Quan" Martin 5'11". 194 lbs Illinois
Stats: 74 targets, 42 catches allowed, 611 yards allowed, 3 tds allowed, 3 ints, 15 forced incompletions, 2 dropped ints, 4 missed tackles, 64 tackles.
PFF Grade: 73.2
Quan is a beast. I thought he was the 2nd best nickel prospect in the draft and a better deep safety than Brian Branch. Martin absolute rockets around the field in the run game. He started his career at cornerback before transitioning into the safety/nickel position. Another elite athlete that is a perfect fit for our Buffalo Nickel defense.
PFF:
Martin came to Illinois and immediately started as a true freshman in 2018. He originally started off as an outside corner before becoming more of a slot corner recently. He had arguably his best year in 2022, as his 15 forced incompletions were tied for the sixth-most among Power-Five corners. Martin’s 91.0 run-defense grade also led all Power Five cornerbacks. While he played corner at Illinois, we project him more as a safety for the next level.
PROS:
Explosive flat-foot breaks. Tremendous burst. Forceful and reliable tackler - 7 misses on the last 129 attempts last two seasons.Fills like a mac truck in the run game. Wants to come downhill and play in the backfield.
CONS:
Pure man skills are work in progress. Overagressive and liability to bite on fakes. cons On the lighter side for an around the line of scrimmage player. Gets caught with his eyes in the backfield on run
Round 3: 97 Ricky Stromberg 6'3" 306 lbs Arkansas
Stats: 9 impact blocks, 11 qb hurries, 0 qb hits, 0 sacks allowed
PFF Grade: 82.4
Nasty. Another guard experience player that spent his last two years at the center position. Award winner of the Jacob's Blocking Trophy for the SEC'S most outstanding blocker award. This is a solid player that has started since he was freshman in the SEC. He's been battle tested since he was kid and has improved every year. He has some knocks about his play strength, but a NFL program should get em to where he needs to be.
PFF:
Stromberg was a three-star recruit in the 2019 class and started for the Razorbacks as a true freshman, mostly at right guard. He moved inside to center for his sophomore season and spent his final three college seasons there. Stromberg’s 82.4 overall grade and 83.7 run-blocking grade in 2022 both ranked fourth among all centers in college football, and his nine big-time blocks were tied for fifth among FBS centers. Not to mention, Stromberg had an incredible performance at the NFL combine.
PROS:
Does not want to let blocks go. Can see him straining his butt of to stay engaged on tape. Tons of experience against top competition. Four-year starter with 3,121 career snaps.
CONS:
Forward lean gets going on the move, making him liable to topple over. Has wide hands to initiate contact in pass protection before resetting. Leaves himself open for stronger rushers.Unimpressive musculature, which leaves questions about how he'll anchor against NFL strength.
Round 4: Braeden Daniels 6'4" 296 lbs Utah STATS:
0 sacks allowed, 1 qb hit allowed, 14 hurries allowed.
PFF GRADE: 72.2 at tackle, 2021 84.4 at guard.
Braeden Daniels is another tackle/guard hybrid, with starting experience across his college career. This guy is on the lighter side but that allows him to be an Explosive athlete. Very raw at the tackle position and will be a developmental guy. I'd like to give em a try as our swing tackle and see how he performs. He was one of the quickest offensive lineman I've seen off the tape and that athleticism will let him climb to the next level. Even on the lightweight side I'd hate to see this guy running at me on the second level.
PFF:
Daniels is an experienced veteran who commanded the Utes’ offensive line for the past few years. He originally started as a guard before switching over to tackle. His best season came in 2021, as he put up an 84.4 PFF grade. Given his time on the interior, Daniels is at his best when run blocking, and his run-blocking grade in 2021 was an elite 89.1. He still held his own as a pass protector, allowing only five sacks in his Utah career.
PROS
Explodes out of his stance. Arguably the quickest get off in the offensive line class. Linebackers don't want to see him climbing. Gets on them before they can even react. Drive in his lower half to still move the line of scrimmage despite being under 300 pounds.
CONS
Wild into contact. He approaches blocks with the adjustment ability of a freight train. consDoesn't bring his hands with him. Clean engagements are rare on tape. Very light by NFL standards (294 pounds at combine).
Round 5: 137 KJ Henry 6'4" 260 lbs Clemson
STATS:
51 tackles, 3.5 sacks, 1 FF, 6 pass deflections, 50 qb pressures, 31 qb hurries, 14 qb hits.
PFF GRADE: 83.1
Loved this pick. Henry was a 5 star recruit coming out of high-school and decided to attend Clemson University. With Clemson having deep lines it took him a couple of years to get on the field. The stats look odd when you only see 3.5 sacks, however, the 50 qb pressures is the key stat. Seems more like bad luck that the sack numbers weren't high. Clemson's whole d-line underperformed (Bresee, Murphey) and they should have picked up more sacks from Henry who was the best DE on that team last year. The team clearly liked him as we traded back up for him. He's not elite athlete, but he is an elite hands guy. Almost had that veteran presence in college. High motor and will immediately make an impact as a rotational de, a position that sorely needed an upgrade.
PFF:
On a team with Myles Murphy, you can easily make the case that KJ Henry was Clemson's best defensive end this year, as he posted better PFF grades than Murphy in every category and even generated 19 more pressures. The only problem is That Henry is 24 years old while Murphy is only 21. Therefore, Henry was expected to produce this well against younger competition. Nonetheless, this doesn’t mean that he can’t still improve. If Henry's play this season is any indication of his potential, he can still have a great NFL career as an edge defender.
PROS:
Heavy hands that are so well refined. Uses them independently to use combination moves.Utilizes hesitations and head fakes so well to catch linemen off-balance. Coaches rave about the type of teammate he is. He is the type of player you want in the locker room.
CONS:
First step that's unimposing for a rusher on the smaller side. Late bloomer. Wasn't even a starter until this past fall. One of the oldest prospects in the class. Already 24 years old.
Round 6: 193 Chris Rodriguez 6'0" 217 lbs Kentucky
STATS: 8 games played, 175 attempts, 904 rushing yards, 6 tds, 5.2 ypa, 5 catches, 41 rec yards.
PFF GRADE: 90.8
Chris Rodriguez is a PFF darling and was rated as the 7th best running back. This guy's is a pure one cut, run you over, power back. There's not much finesse to his game, but there's highlights of dragging guys 10-yards down the field. He does not posses break away speed, but he will get you 40 yards. He was suspended 4 games due to a dui and he may have been drafted higher on am abysmal Kentucky team. An extra 4 games of stats against SEC competition and no suspension may have jumped him into the 4th round. This was an Eric Bienemy guy and they brought him in because of that. Isiah Pacheco was another EB guy.
PFF:
Rodriguez is a powerful runner, but he lacks the burst and creativity to become anything more than a downhill grinder. He has the size and mentality to do the dirty work between the tackles, but it could be a challenge for him to get to and through the hole quickly in the NFL. He’s a physical blitz protector, so teams might envision a role for him as a second-half battering ram and third-down quarterback protector.
PROS:
Two-time team captain. Thick frame with ability to pick up tough yards. Makes tacklers feel his size at impact. Stays square getting through downhill cuts. Low success rate guaranteed for arm-tacklers. Stays on his feet through heavy angle strikes. Allows lead blockers to do their work. Steps up with force against incoming rushers.
CONS:
Below-average burst getting through line of scrimmage. Lacks finesse to navigate tight run lanes. Change of direction is heavy. One-speed running style is easy to track for linebackers. Pad level is a little tall as run-finisher. Inconsistent finding assignment versus blitz.
Round 7: 233 Andre Jones 6'4" 248 lbs Louisiana
STATS: 7 sacks, 5 qb hits, 20 hurries.
PFF GRADE: 77.2
Andre Jones was another hybrid de/lb player coming out last year. He possess 34 1/4" arms which is an elite number for his size. May move to LB, but I'm not sure that's the right move with a 4.71 40-yard dash. He doesn't have much a pass rush move set playing a hybrid role, but does use length to his advantage. A solid developmental pick.
PROS:
Shows a natural feel for setting up blockers and getting them off-balance. His hands are active and violent, and Jones quickly disengages with blockers and counters when his initial move stalls. Possesses accurate snap anticipation and timing to beat blockers off the edge. Offers some versatility, rushing from a two-and three-point stance with the playing speed to stand up in space.Flashes strength as a bull rusher and his energy doesn't plateau. Showed initial quickness and good flexibility to dip and bend. Jones has active hands and suddenness to his movements, demonstrating the ability to counter inside. Has fluid footwork to redirect, reverse momentum and close with a burst. Regularly first off the ball with good snap anticipation. He’s a high-effort pass rusher with an impressive combination of length and speed.
CONS:
Jones has to develop a counter move or two in the pass rush, and Jones needs to make better use of his hands. He lacks the speed of a chase and- tackle guy. He lacks twitch as a pass rusher and lacks the feet and flexibility to threaten around the edge. Jones also shows some stiffness when trying to bend the edge, often getting pushed past the pocket — he seems more comfortable countering back inside.
Draft Summary:
This was my favorite Ron Rivera/Martin Mayhew draft thus far. Going into the draft, offensive line, cornerback, and quarterback were our three biggest needs. Drafting in the middle of the round really took us out of the olineman race. The last one that interested me was Broderick Jones and he went off the board when the Steelers traded up. At that point in the draft it really left us with going cornerback. The Forbes pick was received negatively due to Christian Gonzalez being available. Both players will be viewed under the microscope throughout their careers. I'm fine with Forbes pick though. Another lanky cornerback who was an elite athlete. I did have Gonzalez rated higher going into the draft, but he slid for a reason. A lot of his tape shows him not necessarily being an elite cornerback, but being an elite athlete that plays corner. Forbes actually showed the athleticism, corner skills, and ballhawking ability. Some additional knocks against Gonazalez and his love of the game. Quan Martin was our biggest surprise pick of the draft. A lot of people had him going in the 3rd round, but I think the 2nd was a fine spot. Mayhew after the draft said he wish we were more aggressive at times, which I translated as not getting Brian Branch that went several picks before us. I think Quan was the backup option, but I like him as much as Branch. I think Quan will be a better deep safety and Bramch will be a better nickel. Liked Quan alot, but felt we should have gone o-line at this pick. Ocyrus Torrence would've been a sweet pick here. I think if that happened, the consensus view on our draft would shoot up. Quan will immediately via for playing time as our base defense is essentially a 4-2-5. Kendall Fuller was our only above average corner and now we turned our secondary into a strength. Ricky Stromberg and Braeden Daniels were our next two picks. I like Stromberg’s tape a lot and think by next he will be a solid starter at guard or center. Braeden Daniels will be a nice depth piece and if he's able to tame his play he could develop into a starter. Fun player to watch. KJ Henry was an awesome pick and can see him being a nice rotational piece. Good pick at an underrated area of need on our defense. RB wasn't a pressing need, but it's an underrated area of weakness. I think Brian Robinson is about as average of rb as you will see starting in the NFL. I wouldn't be surprised if Rodriguez slowly cut into Robinson's role over the next two years. Antonio Gibson has had some solid season, but has a severe fumbling problem. Andre Jones will be a depth piece that will need development moving forward.
Offseason summary:
The biggest question of our offseason was our owner, which now appears resolved. Our second biggest question... was who was our starting qb? Sam Howell. Ron preached all offseason that he was going with Howell and I'll be damned, he did. Brissett was good qb to bring in, not someone that would necessarily turn the offseason into a battle, but can be a starter if called upon. Really a true backup qb. I'm all in on the Sam Howell train. I love it for a multitude of reasons. One, he balls out and we have our qb of the future, two he plays well enough we give him another season and maybe Ron is out and we get a high draft pick, three he bombs and we fire Ron Rivera and go for Caleb Williams next season. If anything, it gives us a direction for our future. I'm ready for Ron to go and think he's only as good as his coordinators. I'm concerned that EB AND Howell turn the offense around Ron gets resigned and EB takes a head coaching role... then the offense regressed. Additionally, I don't want Ron to get credit for drafting Howell. It was 5th round pick, you and every team passed on him for 4 rounds. If Howell is that good... it's not because Ron was a genius and drafted him. Very similar to Seattle taking Russel. I am excited about EB being here and think he's the real deal. I will give Ron credit for allowing him to run his own offense as he sees fit. OTA's have shown that EB is pushing his guys hard and is trying to see what he can do with the offense. We really do have elite playmaker and I'm most excited to see what he can do with Antonio Gibson. I can see his role being that of Jerrick McKinnon, with more athleticism. Sam Howell has shown a lot of progress since his rookie season. Had issues with his foot work, but has shown vast improvements. We only have 1 preseason game and 1 NFL game of tape on him. I liked what he showed. When watching tape you could see him going through his progression, man absolutely saved the day wish his escapability- was under pressure the whole game, threw two beautiful deep passes, and won the game. He did throw one bad pick, but was under pressure and playing hero ball. He had one week of practice with the starters, now he has a whole offseason. Our defense should be a top 5 unit next season and we only got better. Chase Young should be fully healthy and he's the X-factor for the number one overall defense. He comes out plays to his full potential then he could be a mid teens sack guy. If we have that sort of production and Sam Howell plays well than we can compete for the decision. Big if though. Our secondary really lacked a 2nd option, Benjamin St Juyce has shown some flashes but didn't seeze the role last year. Now on paper he's the number and that's very solid. We return two top 6 defensive tackles and Montez Swear is one of the most underrated players in the league. He's yet to have a high sack season, but is very much that Jadaveon Ckowney type of player in the run game. Big question mark season for Jaymin Davis. We knew he needed development, but it's been slower than previously thought. Down the stretch he showed flashes that he was coming into his own and now is his year. He's one of the best athletes at linebacker in the league and his ceiling is very very high. Overall I predict we will go 10-7 and challenge for a wild card spot. That record can fluctuate each one, but I'm calling the improvement now. We went 8-8-1 with bottom 3 qb play. The defense got better, we hired a better offensive coordinator, Howell will at the minimum be slightly better than Hienke last season, we didn't lose any major pieces and had a solid all around draft. I'm truly excited to watch how our future plays out.

So I'm making a cake for my aunt and uncles wedding. I was thinking of doing something like this but maybe with some chocolate covered strawberrys incorporated.
My aunt is lactose intolerant. She says that a little bit of dairy baked into the cake is fine, but lathering the cake in buttercream is obviously not the best idea. I was thinking I could use chocolate mousse instead. It tasts much better than icing in my oppinion, and the recipe I use requires whipped egg whites instead of whipped cream.
I don't know how well it would work, though. Mousse is much softer than buttercream, and chilling is not going to help much with that. Would it still be possible to do a crumb coat? I'm thinking I might freeze it overnight after the crumb coat, and that maybe that'll stiffen it? I've accepted that it won't be as smooth. But I'm hoping it'll be acceptable.
Also, additional question: Is it okay to just melt the chocolate for a chocolate drip, or does it need to be tempered. I'm doing a smaller practice cake before the actual wedding, and it's pretty casual.

I started this in the comments of another post but decided to create separate post for it.
I did an extraction with coke and the did and oil extraction to make it taste better.
Whenever I say I drank 1/5 of the extraction that’s around 10mg of levometh.
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I’m currently 45 minutes into my first experience and it’s going pretty good, I’m using volumetric dosing so I’ve drank 2/5 of the extraction (~20mg). I think I’ll drink another 1/5 (~10mg) soon.
So far the effects are pretty nice, I have a pretty good body buzz, and can feel a mild head buzz starting. So far no discomfort but I tend to tolerate stims pretty well.
Might turn this comment into a sort-of trip report
+00:55 - just took another 1/5 (10mg) (total dose so far 30mg) put on some music and it sound pretty good, also feeling pretty motivated. Gonna use the motivation to get some chores I’ve been putting off done.
+01:25 - thinking about taking another 1/5, feels kinda like adderall but a little different. I’m getting some very light head tingles.
+01:35 - drank another 1/5, I don’t feel the effects building too much but we’ll see what happens.
+01:45 - decided to drink the rest of the extraction since everything is going good (so I’ve had 50mg). Right now it feels like a benzedrex come up.
+02:06 - head tingles are getting a little bit stronger, but it doesn’t really feel like I’m going up that much.
+03:20 - effects are still pretty much the same, gonna get an energy drink and see what that does. Also gonna smoke some weed.
+03:45 - caffeine upped the high a little bit and made it more speedy. The weed made it a little less speedy so it kinda balanced out with the caffeine, the weed also made the tingling explode. Combing through my hair with my hands feels awesome, also I was walking outside and the wind made my arms tingle. Gonna force myself to eat something now.

This week, I had my last call day of my last wards month of my medicine year. I'm a prelim resident. I expected to dread intern year before it started as I didn't really care for my medicine rotations in med school, I thought I was going to be one of those residents that is just trying to get by until the year had passed me. I was wrong, I loved my intern year. I loved coming in and having a small panel of patients that were my own and trying to figure out how I could help them. I loved walking into the rooms every morning and talking to them about what they enjoy doing outside of the hospital and how I can get them back to doing that. I loved taking care of terminal patients and their families knowing that every order I placed and every interaction I had with them gave them the chance for a more humane death. Sure, the schedule sucked sometimes. Sometimes I wished I didn't have to work every weekend. Sometimes I wished I didn't have to miss holidays or stay late because a patient wanted to leave AMA during signout. But I found that I never once walked out to my car wishing that I regretted being there for that shift. I almost never found myself watching the clock waiting for the day to be over.
The last patient I admitted as a medicine doctor was a young lady that I had just discharged a week earlier. We had diagnosed her with widely metastatic cancer during that hospitalization. We got her biopsies, we got her started on chemo, and we got her the procedures she needed to get her cancer pain at a tolerable level before sending her home. I don't think I ever worked harder for a patient than I did for her, and I felt immensely proud of not just myself but the whole team, her, and her family for getting her through what likely was the hardest 3 weeks of her life. I was disheartened when I saw her name on the ED board on Monday, and I almost burst into tears when I opened the door to her room and instead of looking down or upset she sort of grinned and said "I was just thinking of you. I was hoping you were working today." I am saddened that I will no longer be the primary doctor when I see my patients and may never build those relationships that only a primary doctor can have with their patients again.
While I am eager and nervous to move on to my chosen specialty, the field I've been waiting to be in for so many years, I feel a little saddened looking back knowing that had I chosen a career in medicine I would have been genuinely happy. Not that I think that I won't be happy in my new specialty, but that is still uncertain.
The number 1 thing I learned from this year that I would want to pass on to incoming PGY-1's is the importance of taking ownership of your patients. They are YOUR patients. Attendings and residents are there to support you and make sure you don't make mistakes, but ultimately you should feel like you are their main doctor. You are the one the nurse should page if there's a problem, you should be the one coming up with the plans for them, you are the one who should place every order for them and ensure good follow up when they leave the hospital.
Really take the time to enjoy this year, it will fly by; there's so much to learn and so much to love.

Hi all, my wonderful NB spouse is having top surgery soon (they’re mad excited 😆) and I want to prepare lots of kick ass options for new clothes. They are into good looking shirts and a sharp classic look. Picture Benoit Blanc - it’s a vibe.
We have a few known places they can’t wait to shop at but are there any places you can recommend for trans physique with that style? (We’re UK based if that helps)

i'm torn between kazuha and alhaitham. at the moment i love using tighnari, fischl and xinyan + anemo traveler. i started to play recently and my only five stars are tighnari, nahida (not built) and dehya (not built). sometimes i switch it up a little and play with kuki and kaveh, but since it's still hard for me to farm they're not very good i was wondering what character would make my life a little easier (pulling for fischl made the game WAY better but i still have a lot of problems with bosses and domains). or maybe i should just focus on building what i already have and save my primos for some of the next characters? for example raiden and zhongli, i definitely want them. also, i really like alhaitham, but i already have three dendro characters to farm for (kaveh, nahida, tighnari) and the thought of adding a fourth one makes me cry a little any advice is welcome
(english is not my first language so forgive me if the post sounds a bit weird)

Today, I was having a conversation with my friends, when a bitter argument erupted between people about Aurelion Sol (one person is an Aurelion Sol main). It occurred to most of us that it isn't particularly clear what the counterplays to the recent Aurelion Sol rework were.
The rework has turned Aurelion's E ability into what could best be described as a better Anivia ultimate. Not only does it displace enemy champions, but it also consumes a surprisingly low amount of mana. Adding to its potency, this ability automatically executes once a certain HP threshold is reached.
He has a stunning 90% W flight cooldown refund on either a kill or assist. Although it can be interrupted, Aurelion can nimbly reposition himself mid-battle, while relentlessly raining high damage dragon breath on adversaries from a safer distance. Not to mention it a reliable method of getting him out of sticky situations when ganked or camped (which is the reliable way to punish him early on).
Even with a severe gold disadvantage of around 5-6k for Aurelion's team, his upgraded ultimate has the power to completely turn around team fights in the midgame and wipe out the enemy team.
Though his early game might not be strong, exploiting this weakness is a daunting task. He's not very squishy and he has many options to farm safely, as well as escape from sticky situations.
For a champion to only have one strong counter represents a serious imbalance in gameplay design. It is crazy how he is still so overtuned despite consecutive nerfs. This lack of effective counter-play options makes for a less enjoyable gaming experience. I urge the developers to take another look at Aurelion Sol's current state and consider adjustments for the health of the game.
What do other people think?
Source: u.gg
Asol vs Fizz: https://i.imgur.com/Qalg0qG.jpg
Asol vs Yone: https://i.imgur.com/twunpX9.jpg
Asol vs Zed: https://i.imgur.com/m4ojiy4.jpg
Asol vs Qiyana: https://i.imgur.com/LLkfzju.jpg

Hey bruvs, Hope you're all having a fantastic day. I’ve always been someone who’s super paranoid about the radiation that is emitted from our smartphones and earphones. Like it’s to the point where I don’t use my airpods anymore and usually will have my phone on speaker phone if I’m talking to someone on the phone. LMAO like my friends always make fun of me for it but I just feel like i’d rather be on the safe side since I feel like we still haven’t seen super long term effects of this stuff.
My brother who is usually the one that makes fun of me the most about this stuff sent me a company called “American Aires” who specialize in making products that are supposed to reverse/cancel the emission of the radiation. I was confused because he always get a kick out of it whenever we get together LMAO. The product apparently doesn’t block the radiation but restructures it to neutralize any physiological impact. It seems like they have a bunch of studies that are peer reviewed on it with what seems like good results so I’m potentially looking into getting one. I was really impressed with what I saw so I’m thinking of potentially investing into them.
I do have some concerns about doing it tho so I thought I’d try and get some more insight on them before I do anything.
List of concerns:
- They have a bunch of studies on how the product works but their isn’t really an easy way to see if it’s working which is kinda sketchy for me (why invest into something where I’m not sure on their product)
- I haven’t had enough time to fully research their competitors and how they match up against them
- Haven’t invested into this kind of stock before and I’m a little unsure if it’s worth it
I do have a couple positives though which in my opinion might outweigh the concerns:
- Company's adjusted sales for Q1 2023 grew by 138% year-over-year
- I really like the idea of their tech even if there is no easy way to see if it’s working (more of a peace of mind thing)
- The stock is pretty cheap so investing in them won’t break the bank
I for sure think I’m going to look into getting the product but I’m unsure on the stock and would love to gain some more insight/opinions from people. Is it worth taking a chance? Are we seeing any potential of growth? I do like the idea of sales increasing YoY so I believe there is but I would love another opinion on it. Cheers everyone appreciate you taking the time to go over my post!

John Wick: Chapter 2 is by far the best of the four films starring K eanu Reeves as the eponymous hit man, the first of the cycle that I’d recommend—albeit with an asterisk. The new film (which opens

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Friday) has many of the same problems as its predecessors; although these problems are interesting, they’re far more fun to contemplate in the rearview mirror of thought than in the real-time forward motion of viewing. But something happens, fairly late in the game, that converts the film’s merely technical displays of bloody murder into something suspenseful and romantic, if no less silly. The details are too good to give away, but there’s no harm and much pleasure in considering how the movie climbs, slowly but surely, to that light-headed summit.
One of the curiosities of the John Wick series is that, as an entirely original creation dependent on no prior properties, it has nonetheless given rise to an alluring and self-perpetuating mythology of its own. The premise of Wickworld is cleverly paranoiac, built around the tentacular connections between the crude underworld of contract killers and the shadowy overlords who keep them in action. That wicked authority is called the High Table; it dispenses orders to kill on pain of being killed, ratifies contracts for murder, and brokers the deals for bounty hunters. It commands John to kill, and it sets him up to be killed, but it also sets the tone of the movie. The High Table exemplifies a super-élite of secret societies with elaborate rites, deeply rooted aristocracies, a flaunting of mind-bending wealth, and the executive ruthlessness of a transnational shadow government that has the power to wreak havoc in public with impunity.
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On 24th March 2023, Keanu Reeves starring JW4, is coming to your nearest theaters. This American neo-noir action thriller will be 169 minutes long and distributed by Lionsgate. Already, the official YouTube trailer is out, vibing fans' expectations!
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If you are looking for online stream options for this film, you may get updates soon. Also, which platforms can you rely on to watch this newest chapter of John Wick? We will uncover the info here!
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John Wick: Chapter 2 (2023) Release Date
John Wick: Chapter 2 will be out on 24th March 2023 in the US! However, this fourth installment of John Wick was initially scheduled to release on 21st May 2021. Nevertheless, due to the Covid-19 pandemic, the whole shooting got delayed, which impacted the official screening too.
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Also, the title cast- Reeves' had some agreements with The Matrix Resurrections (2021) at that period. In the meantime, John Wick: Chapter 2 (2023) official trailer was uploaded on YouTube on 10th November 2022 from Lionsgate Movies.
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When Is John Wick: Chapter 2 Coming to Movie Theaters?
John Wick: Chapter 2 will first debut exclusively in theaters on Friday, March 24, 2023. It’s hard to believe that this is nearly two years later than its originally intended release date of May 21, 2021!
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If you would rather wait to watch it from the comforts of home, keep reading below, so you can learn more about the movie’s streaming and home media release details.
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Is John Wick: Chapter 2 (2023) Streaming or in Theaters?
John Wick: Chapter 2 will first debut exclusively in theaters on Friday, March 24, 2023. It’s hard to believe that this is nearly two years later than its originally intended release date of May 21, 2021!
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If you would rather wait to watch it from the comforts of home, keep reading below, so you can learn more about the movie’s streaming and home media release details.
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When Is John Wick: Chapter 2 Streaming Online?
Streaming release dates can be quite unpredictable at times. Each streaming service has its own different practices in regard to when a new film can finally be released online, which may also be influenced by a film’s production company too. While John Wick: Chapter 2 is likely to be available for streaming on one of the major streaming platforms, its release date on streaming is still a bit of a mystery. It's a guessing game for now, but keep an eye on this space for future updates!
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Where to Watch John Wick: Chapter 2 (2023) Online?
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Otherwise, you’ll just have to wait for it to become available to rent or purchase on digital platforms like Amazon, Apple, YouTube or Vudu, or available to stream on Disney+. Read on for more information.
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Is John Wick 4 on Netflix?
The streaming giant has a massive catalog of television shows and movies, but it does not include ‘John Wick: Chapter 2 .’ We recommend our readers watch other dark fantasy films like ‘The Witcher: Nightmare of the Wolf.’
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Is John Wick: Chapter 2 on Hulu?
No, ‘John Wick 4’ is unavailable on Hulu. People who have a subscription to the platform can enjoy ‘Afro Samurai Resurrection’ or ‘Ninja Scroll.’
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Is John Wick 4 on Amazon Prime?
Amazon Prime’s current catalog does not include ‘John Wick 4.’ However, the film may eventually release on the platform as video-on-demand in the coming months.fantasy movies on Amazon Prime’s official website. Viewers who are looking for something similar can watch the original show ‘Dororo.’
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Is John Wick 4 on HBO Max?
No, John Wick 4 will not be on HBO Max since it’s not a Warner Bros. movie. The company previously released its movies on the streamer and in theaters on the same day. However, they now allow a 45-day window between the theatrical release and the streaming release.
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Casts of John Wick: Chapter 2 (2023)
Can you imagine the very famous John Wick with Keanu Reeves? Expectedly, Keanu stars the title character- John Wick, with a bunch of other talented cast members, including Donnie Yen (Caine), Bill Skarsgård (Marquis), Laurence Fishburne (Bowery King), Hiroyuki Sanada (Shimazu).
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You will also get to see the following:
● Shamier Anderson asTracker
● Lance Reddick as Charon
● Rina Sawayama as Akira
● Scott Adkins as Killa
● Ian McShane as Winston
● Marko Zaror as Chidi
● Natalia Tena as Katia
● Aimée Kwan as Mia
● George Georgiou as The Elder
● Jackey Mishra as Gangster
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What Is John Wick: Chapter 2 (2023) About?
Remember the story when John Wick first got introduced? He searched for a man who invaded his home and stole his belongings in chapter 1. Then, chapter 2 portrayed John Wick's mission to assassinate a target. Finally, we saw him fighting his way out of New York in the latest chapter of John Wick back in 2019.
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This newest edition of the story will show how John will uncover the way to conquering The High Table. Moreover, here is the twist- John already has his new enemy full of powerful alliances worldwide. Can he conquer them like before? Or is there awaiting more fun and incredible stories to witness? Let us share asap once you watch this Chad Stahelski directorial!

I am a 25 year old male, who is pretty much sure that he's had testicular cancer for around 12 years. Ever since I become 13 my left ball started feeling a little bit longer and over the years it grew a lot. I have had severe social and health anxiety all my life which meant I just swept the problem under the carpet.
I have had almost no pain, just discomfort cuz the ball is hanging low. I expected to be dead by now, however despite it being grown twice the size of my other ball, I am still alive and have no symptoms of cancer that I know of, the only thing is I don't have an erection.
I really want to go to the doctor and find out WHY I am not dead yet, but I am afraid for several reasons:
I have never shown this to anyone and I am afraid to show it to the doctor, I have problems even looking at it myself, I don't look at it while I'm changing clothes.
The fear that the doctor is gonna judge me and ask me how can I be so stupid to never visit him during those 12 years. The fact that he will tell me that if I had gone 10 years ago I could have been saved, but now it's too late.
The fear that I will have it confirmed as cancer and they will put me on chemo.
I watched my grandma die of cancer 2 years ago. She was pretty bad before she went to the doctor, skinny, no apetite, no energy, basically looked sick (I have none of these issues), once they put her on chemo she died within 2 months.
Over the years I have had blood work done for other reasons, no doctor has detected anything wrong with my blood, leukocytes and erythrocytes were within norms, i have had urine tested for kidney disease and it was also fine.
I am afraid to show that monster ball though, I am afraid the cancer is now spread and if I go they will make me do chemo and some kind of surgery and I will get worse (I'm practically ok now, full of energy).
You will ask why do I want to go then? Because I want to stop being controlled by fear. I want to experience sex as I have been way too embarrassed to show myself naked to anyone I have been avoiding it.
I am afraid though, I think if I go, I will die. The doctors in my country are famous for putting anyone on chemo and most of the cases it never works.
How have I not died or shown any signs of worsening of the disease for over 12 years? Should I go or continue "living" like that in fear, wondering what's wrong with me?
I am very very scared.

26M with years of sleep issues that recently become awful insomnia. Still wake up feeling like crap due to suspected sleep apnea, which I'll be seeing someone about shortly. But these past few nights I've been taking 20mg instead of my 10mg due to excessively loud roomates.
They will now hopefully shut the fuck up and I could go back to 10mg, but just 20 seems to be working much better overall. I'm pretty much out like a log until I wake up, which is insane, and then my sleep apnea-esque symptoms are often a little better in the morning.
So yeah, is 20mg unheard of or what? 7.5 was inconsistent for me, 10 slightly less so.

I (26,f) had my tonsils removed 3 days ago. They were enlarged, well one specifically was a lot bigger than the other. Day 1 was fine. I ate some food in the hospital after and managed to sleep and come home fine, just in some discomfort. I was in a lot of pain when I woke so I was given painkillers in the recovery room which probably helped a lot. Day 2 wasn't too bad either. I struggled to eat, but managed a few spoonfuls of porridge, some ice cream, jelly and soup.
Today, I woke up in agony. I am sleeping with my mouth open which doesn't help but I can't stop that. But I've struggled to eat anything today. Even ice cream isn't helping soothe the pain. I managed a protein drink and a small tub of jelly and a bit of ice cream. I'm scared to even drink water, so I don't actually want to eat. I've also been extremely exhausted and sleeping most of today. I felt a little dizzy and sick too. The nurses told us it's likely we will feel a lot worse before we get better, but when does it get better?
More than anything, the thing that worries me the most, is I've lost my voice. I'm trying to talk to my husband, but all that's coming out is a whisper or some kind of wheeze. I could talk yesterday, I had to stop and take a few breaths now and then because it hurt, but today it's like my voice has gone completely. As well, I've noticed the white scabbyness on the back of my throat is getting worse. It's still a whiteish yellow colour, but day one it was just around the tonsils, day 2 it was a little around the uvula and today it's gotten bigger. Is this all normal?
The medicine they prescribed me was 30mg of codeine. I also take some ibuprofen every now and then. I'm not sure I can take or do anything else